Desire and its small personal joys are all you need to break whatever is damming your river.
The tried-and-true, effective, external, hard way to bust a dam:
Dams are made of compacted earth, i.e., bits of the world that have been shaped a certain way and hardened with careful application of weight, cement additives, memory, socially-cultivated belief systems, or innocent errors in thinking. And whatever other benefits they may have, dams are not good for rivers.
You can demolish ANY dam with dynamite, heavy machinery, pick-axes, or the blessed logic involved in simply inquiring into your own thinking.
BUT. But sometimes the dam is just soooo big. Or it’s hard to get a real handle on exactly where the dam is or what it’s made of.
AND/OR sometimes it’s logistically overwhelming to import enough blasting power or stamina to dismantle the thing. That’s understandable — river and human dams both are exceedingly well-built results of centuries of civilization’s best design efforts.
Happily there is another way to get rid of a dam, a way that is natural and doesn’t require you to conjure up any extra external energy: let the river’s own attractive force demolish the dam…
Anatomy of a leak (and why it’s a good thing for a river):
Your river desires to move toward the sea, even/especially when your river is dammed. So here’s how you get rid of a dam: Just feel that longing. Let it exist and grow. Eventually, the longing burrows a little ways into the dam. It excavates more and more of the dam until it makes its way through to the other side. Then it’s an official full-blown leak. It begins to grow more rapidly until it finally and easily busts through the dam to continue the free-flowing life it desires.
Leaks should be enjoyed, allowed, and encouraged. Here’s how to recognize a leak:
- The river — and in this metaphor that means YOU — builds a leak from within its own channel as a natural result of its own natural power, attention, desire. It’s authentic. Possibly quirkily so.
- It feels right and almost like you can’t help doing it — but it doesn’t relieve the pressure the way a rushing spillway does (that’s why spillways just protect dams despite their seeming drama!)
- Leaks may be almost tortuously twisty.
- Leaks start very small and slow — tiny little activities that are less about movement and more about the intense, pleasurable, pressure of the longing. Later they increase, sometimes very gradually for quite awhile, until there’s a certain momentum.
- Leaks may be here and there, all over the place, not concentrated in one place with a defined focus.
- Leaks erode bits of dirt or concrete. They are a little messy at first, and increasingly so as they grow.
- People and cultural institutions that benefit from a dam do not approve of leaks.
- Leaks are usually private at first.
- Leaks are not useful to anyone outside the river (at least not until they have removed the dam and the river is back to its fantastic wild and scenic nature in which case the whole natural ecosystem rejoices as well as cool people!).
Where in your life do you feel the pressure of a persistent and maybe somewhat undefined longing? Let it build. Memorize the sensation of that longing — of that which you desire. Drop into that feeling whenever you can. Where do you feel little trickles of energy pushing their way toward your deepest desire — even though they may not be making much headway? Keep doing that.
Note: Leaks can bust a dam no matter what, but there is one dam-builders secret that can make a dam much less likely to spring a leak or to have a leak be devastating. Click here to figure out a way around that secret. It’s my favorite post yet.